things seen and unseen

Things we see are not the 'real' real, and things we feel might be the only reality worth knowing.

...who knows...

...the great blue heron knows..vigilant, utterly collected, being all of what is seen and unseen at once...being bird and rock and thought...a clarity of being and not-being....if i practice reeeally hard, maybe i could be totally synchronous nanoparticled spiritblended pondessence...holy quack, superduck...

....another blended world that I live in: having piano-ness...being musical creates openness to all kinds of realities...
being at the piano, reading the music...
being part of the tonal vibration,
a spiritual connection within the music....a mystical blend of knowing, hearing, feeling, performing.

...sometimes all of my inside and outside worlds come together...or collide...
the simutaneity of love and dispair, duality of public and private views....
living in a magical world of people who love each other
unholy war
being a mother
suddenly being 60
making a living, buying gas
formalized discrimination and institutional oppression in the Church
incredible joy of a true marriage covenant
genocide
...wondering at the nature and infinity of God, confident in the certainty of angels

...when any one or all of my worlds is suffered, or celebrated, or made whole again,
or just with me too much,
it is a piece of grace to be able to take it to the keys
and play it out..
in colors
tonalities of feelings
as reflections of the words in the room
melodies made of odd angles and little wisps like the way people stand and sigh
...always playing secrets

Music is one of the most natural things to 'do'...
Even smiling doesn't come as easily as hearing the music
and flowing it out on the keys.
Mystical stuff.
Illuminating.
Music sorts out my worlds, creates order, blends realities...makes everything possible.

Joan Chittister ... master interpreter-teacher-illuminator of seen and unseen realities says...
'See everything in life as sacred.
This neighborhood calls something out in us.
This tree stirs feeling in us. This work touches hope in us.
Everything in life, in fact, is speaking to us of something.
Awareness puts us into contact with the universe.
It mines every relationship,
unmasks every event,
every moment,
for the meaning that is under the meaning of it.

Everything in life is meant to stretch me
beyond the superficial self to the better self,
to the Ultimate Good who is God.

...so ... I might could see and play the beauty in George, or Rumy...even Dick..
but only with loooooooooots of marking time in a non-violent key.....